The title says it all. I feel like right now my life is always up in the air. The last week and a half has been such a roller coaster. You may recall on my last post (over a week and a half ago,) that I said I had some great news. In fact, twice I started to blog about it and then just couldn't bring myself to post it.
We found the perfect house. And to top that off, the seller accepted our super low ball offer. We were thrilled. It was only 5 miles from my husbands job, the schools are pretty nice and close, the house had all the features we were looking for, including a separate studio area. The yard and neighborhood were beautiful and we couldn't wait to get the ball rolling and settle into this next chapter of our lives. So what happened?
Well, we had our home inspection. LOL, we knew there were some issues, hence the super low ball offer. We never dreamed he would accept what we offered, but we were hoping that he would counter low enough that we could still afford the house (STUDIO) and still make the necessary repairs and such. Well, this house was hiding something. Here in the Great NorthWest, there is a LOT of rain. This home has a stucco exterior. We LOVE the look. However, if it isn't installed properly, that beautiful exterior hides and seals in moisture. We found two areas that had a LOT of moisture. Yes, it can be fixed, not cheaply, but still within the budget. However, eventually it will need to all come down and be redone with something more conducive to the climate. And as luck would have it, someone else also put in a bid on the house, so we lost all leverage with the owner. So sadly, last Friday I called my realtor and withdrew our offer. So sad. We don't believe the owner was aware of the extent of damage this is happening as this seems to be the "2nd home." He is aware now though. LOL.
This move is proving to be rather more difficult for me than some of the others have. So I have just kind of crawled into my little hole for the past few days and done nothing that was on my plate. I did record a couple of new videos, but I personally think they are rubbish and I will redo them. I just feel like I am floundering. I spent all day last Thursday in the studio and have nothing to show for it except a couple of lousy videos that I don't feel good about publishing. My muse is hibernating or ignoring me. It is so hard for me to work in the room that I currently have set up for the studio. I don't know why that is. I think it is a combination of the lighting and bad workflow in there. I really want to hold classes but I can't even seem to make the layout work for me and am not sure how to make it work with multiple people in there.
In an effort to get my muse back a bit, I have begun serious work on my book. I now have four projects completed and the first rough outline is completed. I have identified at least 13 projects that I would like to do. However, those projects may change or be removed. As I have been doing more research I have seen other things that make me want to take some of the projects in different directions. We will just have to see how things go. But it is fun to at least have some creative things coming back into my mindset. Like I said before, I feel like I am just floundering, even to the point where I sometimes toy with the idea of selling everything off and just doing something else. But then I think about not doing some of this stuff and that doesn't sit well either.
I know this post is rather rambly, but hopefully now that I have gotten it all off my chest I can finally get to work and make some things happen. I miss being creative and having direction. I know a lot of that comes from the temporary living situation we are in. I was really looking forward to having that house and setting down some rooms and get moving with life. So the search for the perfect place continues. Let's all just hope that whoever currently owns it is ready to go SOON. HA!
Okay, I think I am ready to get to work. Hope to see you again this week with some videos or at least a Featured Artist Friday. I now have 3 artists, so I just need to get them posted. See you all in a bit.